Fresh Start

I love that we can always have a fresh start. Every day can be a fresh start! We can make every day better than yesterday! I am so blessed to have a new job that I love and is perfect for me. It is my fresh start! It took me about 3 or 4 months to find. This job was truly meant to be. I work the front office at a massage therapy office. I have opening duties and closing duties and have to fold sheets once a week, but other than that..in between checking clients in and out, I am able to do diamond art, read a book, be on my phone, and now that I am back in the writing zone.. I can be on my laptop to write this blog! My last job was also meant to be but only for almost 3 years. I loved working at the small law office where I was busy all day. I worked part time, but did the work of a full time person. I am a bad ass like that! Lol. I reall;y liked my boss. He was a super nice guy. The other lawyer was cool sometimes but could be a B*tch sometimes. I also loved Diana who was basically the office manager. The lawyers’ son started working there after he graduated law school. I feel like he was really nice until he passed his bar. Then he just became an entitled for lack of a better word..douchebag. So it started to become a stressful atmosphere for me and I am glad they let me go. Pretty sure that was the lawyers son and the other lawyers idea but does not matter now. As my grandfather said, everyone is replaceable .. but I bet they had a hard time finding someone as awesome as me. I know they did before they hired me, because they were willing to keep me permanent even though I could only do part time. Here at my new job, I also only have to work part time…2 - 9.25 hour days a week. I work the complete opposite of a full time employee who works 5 days a week with 2 days off. I work 2 days a week with 5 days off in a row! It is so amazing! I am blessed to be able to work part time, because about 4 years ago, after I was hospitalized for a couple of weeks and lost a good job at the hospital, I applied for mental disability. I was approved after only 3 months which is very rare but I was lucky and also, I deserved it after all I have been through with my mental illness and hospitalizations.

I deleted all my blogs from last year and there were a lot. I deleted them, because I said some bad and some untrue things about my family. My Mom printed them all out though, and I asked her yesterday if I can please have them to look over and possibly copy. I do not know why she printed them, my therapist said she does not understand why she printed them, and my Mom said she does not know why. But either way, I think I did some good writing. My favorite one was called Pretty Woman. But I am glad to be back in the writing mode. When I got this super cool Apple laptop (I forgot exactly what it is called), the Apple business team contacted me since I was telling them I have an LLC. I told him I am the next Carrie Bradshaw. Ha ha! They told me I can get multiple phone numbers on one phone which is super awesome. I eventually can have a business line for my non profit foundation and a private line for personal. After I take my 2 vacations coming up..Disneyland for my birthday and San Diego just because I love it and it will be nice to have a relaxing vacation after my busy vacation. If I still have my roommate then which is good extra income, I will go see a lawyer soon about submitting to the IRA for my foundation. I was told a CPA could help and then I was told they can’t, and I need a lawyer. We will see how it goes. I just know my foundation is meant to be and will be successful soon enough. I really just need to start getting donations, but first it needs to be a legit non profit 501c3. But in the meantime, life is good. I have a good job I love, an amazing schedule, lots of friends, a safe home, a loving family, AA, etc.

But the signs have been so amazing!! Even today I noticed that the WiFi password at work has 33 in it! 33 was my Uncle Scotty’s favorite number and has been my favorite number since I was in HS and copied my big brother. But if you look up 333 — the meaning is amazing! It means my angels are guiding and supporting me! 444 is even better and I have seen that a lot in the last year also. Yesterday I bought a scratcher ticket for $5 bucks and the machine gave me an extra one for free. I won $25 bucks on the extra one! Last year in crisis I thought I won $100,000 on a crossword scratcher but the last word was literally OWL! I have an owl tattoo for my Grams Joyce who passed away about 3 years ago. My sisters saw 2 owls on the top of her house after she passed away. It just symbolized her being back with my Gramps after a lot of years living without him. It also just let us all know they are both still loving and supporting us! My Gramps John was in the Navy and a civil engineer and died in hospice during 9/11. He was the head civil engineer for the Hilton hotel one Broadway where I used to think I would go to kill my self so my family would not find me 4 days later like my Dad found my Uncle. But now it is a Hotel where I will have a huge fundraising party for my foundation and maybe eventually will own one day! I felt my Gramps so strong during my trauma in the hospital which was soon after he died and after 9/11.. And at that time I was Atheist and did not believe in God. Yesterday as I was leaving the gym after having a good cry in the pool and jacuzzi cause I felt my angels, I saw a military license plate with the stripe for all those we have lost and it said We Got U. It just made me smile so hard.

Okay I could literally keep writing forever but I want my blogs to be short easy reads, and also there is a client who will be checking out in about 15 minutes. Just remember though, if you are feeling down or depressed or just having a bad day, we can always have a fresh start!! Love you all and again, thank you so much if you are reading this. I appreciate the love and support! I just have to add that I ordered a chipotle bowl with Grub Hub cause my Dad gave me an extra $25 bucks when giving me money to have someone install the barnyard door for me in my bathroom. But the code I was given for the driver was freaking 33!! That is just so amazing to me!